Eviscerate

A short ballad on being criticized from others. There are times when students aren’t allowed to do the things that they want to, or choose their own career.

 

There are some things that people forget to do

Or they just pretend to forget

They never ask what I want

And just live in what they expect


I hate those things which they expect

Cause they just wanna compare

Compare me with neighbours and classmates

And never appreciate what’s fare


Like any human first i was in rage

Angry on those who criticized

Those who wanted to keep me in cage

Well, I am the bird who loves to fly


They never encouraged for my skills

My art – they called it ‘waste’

And every single word they spoke

Just made me feel eviscerate


Everything that is alive

And is true as nature spirits

Engraves new way of living life

And die with different merits


But as I said I love to fly

Higher and higher in the sky

Fighting the traps in my life

Being the warrior of light


Standing on the top of the mountain

I speak this to myself with cause

“Thanks to all those who criticized me

You made me stronger than I was”


Just because of them today

I have strength to fight alone

And no matter whatever it takes

I’ll engrave my way and roar!

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That Inferior Feeling…

A small verse for those who are being criticized by people…and just to get appreciation they pretend to be someone they are not.

 

Once again I stand alone

With no one of my own

Just a chilled bad breeze

Of cold words the spoke


The words which were false tried

To make me pretend someone else

They were unfamiliar with the truth

That i am a selcouth


They say I am paranoid

And just left me devoid

Led me to silent sinking

With just this empty feeling


I tried to pretend what I am not

But there was nothing that I got

They kept on speaking cold words

Pushing me deep in my fears


And that inferior feeling

Had made itself feel like home

Taking away my strength

Leaving weakness in my soul


So here I am standing alone

Alone just about to faint

Don’t know how to fight for right

With this empty strength


But then something strange happened

The surroundings lighten up…

My instincts told me something fun

“There’s a valley in front, lets go and run!”


Of course no one wants to die

Asking me? Yea i am the same

I wanna live my life my way

Well, don’t want money or fame


Cause I know ain’t not so great

Just being a bit feisty

And I won’t die unless I live

My dream life and make a story


Now I am happy that inferior feeling

Has made it feel like home

Cause that feeling and my past

Gave me strength to live alone


I’m proud of what I’ve done

And promised to never look back

It made me who I am

And for this I won’t regret


That regret feeling is worser

It doesn’t teaches us anything

Just gives a luxurious car

And takes you to the pain…never ending.


Life’s cocktail of different feelings

Each feeling with different flavour

Let the tasty ones flow into your life

And savour this essence forever…

*****

I’m the Master of my Seas…

Here’s a ballad about a girl named Elice. A great tragedy happens with her but she finds inspiration from nature.

For some it’s nightmare, for some it’s real

You may feel every word and sentence from here

She was little broken, little puffed up with fear

Didn’t knew how this sinking feeling got near


Call her Ella, real name was Elice

It was fine day and she was home alone

Her parents went to little get-together

And she was talking to a friend on her phone


That time home landline ringed

There was a news that made her mind swing

Her heart beat stopped and mind went black

News- her parents went of a car crash


She ran to healthline as fast she could

Talked to doctors and nurse

They told her parents were in cabin 27A

And apologized that they couldn’t be saved


She cried and wept, there was nothing she could do

Mom’s touching care, the love that was true

Dad’s teachings and paths he showed

Ella recalled everything as she soaked


She had no siblings. This only child

Was inspired by nature in a dark night

Walked on the road out of the health line

The road had different scent that night


It was dark as coal and just moonlight shown

Ella was silent as cold wind soared

It was lone road, no man in sight

Just trees and buzzing insects of night


She trodded a dead leaf as walked on

Stepped back, picked up and frowned

Dead leaf taught her greatest truth

“Nothing’s eternal, it’s a mortal world

It’s a mortal world, everything has time

Everything dies after they sing their rhyme”


Ella gave a sigh and walked on

And saw an owl on the branch

It was beautiful and white as snow

And something made her eyes glow


“What if you’re different? Nothing’s wrong

Love who you are and where you are from

There’s nothing you need to prove others

You are beautifully imperfect & it never bothers”


Ella walked on and came to a place

She stood in in a clearing with moonlight on her face

Felt like she’s standing on the centre stage

Facing outside world, away from her cage

The essence she got was

“The life’s sometimes dark, but light is never dead”


Ella came to a river bend

It was covered with mist and scent

The night lear engraved in her mind

Until she completes her rhyme


She washed her face

Along with disgrace

Stood up brave and said

Audacious’ words ahead


“I shall rise and live my life

Make my own future indeed

Being feisty, I shall strive

Yea, I’m the Master of my Seas!”

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